The Last Post

I’ve been waiting for the right time to write this kind of post! Finally, at the last day in this 2012, I’m gonna write this and I will confess what I need to confess in this post. At the end of this year, I’m so much happier since things are getting much better when i was trying not to know it more. Back to the past, I finally realize how I’ve been so stupid to care about you and the bad thing is I am trapped in your play. You’re nice, smart, but what I surprisingly find, you did play the heart. Pretending as if you cared, just because you were afraid to tell me the truth. Saying all those damned nice words which for me it does mean nothing now. Totally nothing.

I thought you were a good person, but I think I’ve got the other picture of you. Since that day, I hate when I walked together with you as I did understand it would be just part of your play. At the end, it will just be the worst moment in my life! and yes it is! Well, lately when I asked you some things, it’s more because I needed the information and I don’t mean to really have a chat with you, I was trying not to break the friendship. Never talk with you, actually we did! We never had any chat anymore. That’s totally a good thing for me. Now at the end of this year, let me confess how I felt so surprised with all the lies you told me, though I knew you would do that. I don’t know when we will meet again, but I don’t care now. It’s new year, and I know I’ve been moving on this far. I’m not gonna hate the love. I’m not gonna blame the love just because of you, the one who never deserves it. I know love is a fantasy, it’s a beauty, but sometimes not all people can feel it. I’m getting over you. I will not need you to bring me something just because you wanted to please me. Things were much better before I knew you, and I surely will return the things right. This will be the first and last post about the story. If now you talked more about love, I’m just not really sure it’s truly from your heart. Or yeah maybe you have one heart to live, but not to love. Dear you, I’m moving on.


“Girl On Fire”

Alicia Keys

She’s just a girl and she’s on fire

Hotter than a fantasy, lonely like a highway
She’s living in a world and it’s on fire
Feeling with catastrophe, but she knows she can fly awayOhhhh oh oh oh oh
She got both feet on the ground
And she’s burning it down
Ohhhh oh oh oh oh
She got her head in the clouds
And she’s not backing down

This girl is on fire…
This girl is on fire…
She’s walking on fire…
This girl is on fire…

Looks like a girl, but she’s a flame
So bright, she can burn your eyes
Better look the other way
You can try but you’ll never forget her name
She’s on top of the world
Hottest of the hottest girls say

Ohhhh oh oh oh
We got our feet on the ground
And we’re burning it down
Ohhhh oh oh oh oh
Got our head in the clouds
And we’re not coming down

This girl is on fire…
This girl is on fire…
She’s walking on fire…
This girl is on fire…

Everybody stands, as she goes by
Cause they can see the flame that’s in her eyes
Watch her when she’s lighting up the night
Nobody knows that she’s a lonely girl
And it’s a lonely world
But she gon’ let it burn, baby, burn, baby

This girl is on fire…
This girl is on fire…
She’s walking on fire…
This girl is on fire…

Oh, oh, oh, oh ohhhhh oh oh oh ohhh oh oh oh ohhhh…

She’s just a girl and she’s on fire

“Things Are Gonna Get Better”

This song of David Archuleta :* Like it 😀

Yeah, yeah. Mmm hmm.

Everybody’s got a time in their life
When everything hurts and nothing’s right.
But you gotta walk on, yeah you gotta walk on.

Everybody’s got a piece of their heart
That’s been stepped on and torn apart.
But you gotta be strong, yeah you gotta walk on.

Cause I, know, it’s hard to have the strength and,
Sometimes, all you feel is pain, but,
Things keep floating by on that river in the night.

But I know things are gonna get better,
And I know things are gonna be fine.
And I know Life is gonna get better,
Life is gonna get better, yeah we’re gonna be fine.

Everybody’s got that one regret, no matter how they try, they can’t forget.
But you gotta move on, yeah you gotta move on.
And everybody’s got someone they’ve lost,
And they can’t believe they’re really gone.
But you gotta live on, yeah you gotta live on.

Cause I, know, it’s hard to have the strength and,
Sometimes, all you feel is pain, but,

Things keep floating by on that river in the night.

But I know things are gonna get better,
And I know things are gonna be fine.
And I know Life is gonna get better,
Life is gonna get better, yeah we’re gonna be fine.

And I know there’s hope.
I see it in your eyes.
So take me, touch me.
Cause with a little bit of love, we can win the fight.
With a little bit of love we can see the light.
With a little bit of love it’ll be alright.

I know things are gonna get better,
And I know things are gonna be fine.
And I know Life is gonna get better,
Life is gonna get better, yeah we’re gonna be fine.

Walk, walk, walk the line and,
keep, keep, keep walking on.
Keep, keep, keep walking on.

Warum lernen Sie Deutsch?

,,Warum lernen Sie Deutsch?” Das ist die erste Frage, wenn ich meinen Deutsch Unterricht starte.  Was konnte ich dann antworten? Ich sage, dass ich Deutsch fϋr Spaβ machen mӧchte. Und mein Lehrer,der Indonesisch sprechen kann nicht, nur lachte.. Hahahah 😀 Alles weiβ die Beschwerlichkeit der Sprache. Ich beschwere mich nicht fϋr diese. Im Gegenteil, suche ich gute Wegen zu lernen. Am besten, finde ich auch Blog ein guter Platz.

Also, was ist eigentlich mein Grund fϋr Deustch? Meistens mӧchten viele Studenten nach Deutschland studieren. Ich habe auch den gleichen Grund gedenkt. Das ist nicht leicht zu tun. Ich weiβ, dass ich die Sprache beherrschen muss. Menschen, die nach Deutschland leben und studieren mӧchten, mϋssen deshalb ernst diese Sprache verbessern. Vielleicht, um Leichtigkeit zu haben, muss man vorher diese Sprache lernen. Sonst bekommt man kein besseres Resultat. Was soll ich damit? Ich denke auch an meine Zukunft. Wir genau wissen, dass eine gute Lernbegierde ein starker Schlϋssel ist. Ich habe oft gesagt, wie schwer dieser Anfang ist. Das ist ϋblich in einer Fremdsprache. Obwohl ich keine Ahnung von dem Ende habe, glaube ich, dass Deutsch wert ist. #Vielglϋck dann!!

Die Erste

Seit drei Monaten habe ich Deutsch gelernt. Ich habe die A.1. Stufe gepassiert. Jetzt  finde ich, dass mein Deutsch besser ist. Ich kann Deutsch mehr verstehen und schreiben. Ich muss mich an vielen Wӧrter erinnern (der wichtigste Teil). Viele Menschen haben gesagt, wie schwierig Deutsch ist. Wenn die andere mein Grund fϋr Deutschlernen fragen, antworte ich, dass ich Deutsch interessant finde. Deutsch ist eigentlich eine schwere Sprache. Die Schwierigkeit ist  eine Herausforderung. Ich mag lieber Englische Grammatik als Deutsche Grammatik. Es fällt mir schwierig zu guten Sätze machen und perfekten Deutsch hӧren. Deshalb nehme ich Deutsch Kurs und schreibe ich hier Deutsch. Ich meine , dass ich viele Fehler geschriebt habe :‘( Aber kein Problem! Ich muss zuerst versuchen :D..

Im besonderen wird dieser Monat eine lange freie Zeit zum Deutsch Unterricht. Meine Frage ist „Wie kann ich mein Deutsch drauβen die Klasse verbessern?“ .. Ja ich weiβ !! Ich muss immer auch meine Bϋcher lesen und meine Aufzeichnung wiederholen (ein biβchen langweilig:P ). Sonst wϋrde ich viele vergessen. Magst du mit Deutsch in deiner freien Zeit unterhalten?? Ich mӧchte  jeden Tag Deutsch sprechen. Aber ich habe kein Platz mehr fϋr die Sprechenϋbung 😦 Hemm…. Was muss ich dann tun?? Keine Ahnung! Toi-toi !!!

Writing and Blogging: Expat Blog Awards 2012 – Germany


Oh God, My Wife Is German.

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More Efforts?

I’ve just read a book, A Culture Shock, A Survival Guide to Customs and Etiquette Germany. I’m now trying to get into Germany from several books. At least, I would have been informed myself before I plan to take German course. Richard Lord, in his book said that ‘one must take a serious effort to learn German. Don’t think that you will pick the language up off the streets like it was second nature’. His words suddenly come to my mind and question me whether I take a right decision to start this language or not. Will I be able to speak this language? Will I be able to understand German?

I just have no clearer view about this. I’ll only get the answers when I have started learning German seriously. Probably, I look more at the difficulties rather than to practice more and more, or I just haven’t started to memorize each German word (with their female, male, or natural articles) more intensely, and open dictionaries more often is completely a must for a beginner like me *Seems like I want to carry on my dictionary everywhere I go* Oh, come on Donna!! Ich wϋnsche dass mein Deutsch besser ist!! You need more efforts, Donna!! Remember, when there is a will, there is a way. You’ve just started to learn the language; it doesn’t matter if it puzzles at the beginning. You’ll be able to tackle this! All Indonesian learners must feel the same difficulties when learning this foreign language. Go ahead and keep moving on.


Climate change has been a hot issue in recent years. Climate change is closely connected with the save of energy. While most developed countries attempt to research for a better renewable energy, waste management is still the biggest challenge to solve in my home country.  I’ve ever read about the waste management in Germany where its government concerns a lot about the waste. They differentiate the waste based on the characteristics in different bin and also reuse the waste as the source of energy in Munich. Even the government is strict enough about the waste disposal.

I do not blame government for the waste management in my home country (as what I compare with the situation in Germany), though actually government is the main part in controlling the country since they rule most sectors for the country development, right? Everyone should actually pay attention about the disposal of their home waste (the daily waste produced). We can start to put the organic and inorganic waste in different bin (dual rubbish system). In fact, this does not work properly here. For instance when you go around some places like tourism destination here and there dual rubbish bins available for the organic and inorganic waste, people still throw the trash in the wrong bin.

I am quite interested with the waste recycling in Munich (Germany) told in the “Culture Shock, A Survival Guide to Customs and Etiquette Munich” by Elizabeth Smith. In Munich, the area organizer will explain about the rubbish sorting system. There, “der Gelbe Sack” (yellow sack) is used to package waste (i.e paper and glass). The sacks will be collected by the garbage authorities once a fortnight. Each sack is printed with name of different waste types (so you can put different rubbish in different sack). Things such as milk, juice cartons, wrapping from food, bottle tops are collected in different sacks and must be washed thoroughly before being thrown. People who forget to put the waste in the right sack or bin will be traced and also fined for their misdemeanor. The bin etiquette is also managed, for instance people should never use the bin on Sundays since it might disturb the neighbors. The dual rubbish system in Munich works effectively. People who put the plastics or bottle waste into the organic sack will face the situation where the garbage collector wouldn’t take the sacks and they will be charged for the waste left there.

Here in my home country, I find a very contradictive situation. Most of the house located in housing complex usually has a waste bin and they commonly do not differentiate the waste, so you could always find plastic bottles or glass with the waste of food in the same bin. For them who live out of the housing complex they usually throw the trash into the river or they collect the trash in an open land in the back of their house which then cause health problem and soil contamination. Many people just do not know what to do with the waste, especially in certain areas whose government pays less attention to. In Germany, the government does recycling and reusing of the plastics waste. They seriously manage the waste.  They incinerate the organic waste as the source of energy also.

One of the REUSE actions I recently have done is the reuse of the waste in microbiology laboratory where I work (this is a very simplest thing I can do in my working place besides reusing the second paper). Here we use Petri Dish (the dish for growing bacteria with liquid or solid medium). Each Petri dish consists of a thick filter paper. For Escherichia coli analysis we usually use solid medium while the filter is used for the liquid medium only, so we put out the filter from the dish. We can put out 40 filters a day.  The filter is cycle in form and it’s thick and hard enough. Because the filter is no longer used, usually the papers are thrown away into the rubbish bin. But then I thought about the REUSE action. I took those filters and I could reuse them to become some usable stuffs. Take a look at the picture 😀



Those are the simplest examples I could share about the REUSE action.

Bruno Mars-Today My Life Begins

Sometimes songs could inspire you or even motivate you for something new to experience. This song is for all who enter the new page of life. Let’s sing a song 😀

Bruno Mars-Today My Life Begins

I’ve been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart’s been done so wrong
I wondered if I’d ever heal again

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (Ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins,
a whole new world is waiting It’s mine for the taking,
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
and I’ve learned how to leave it where it is
and I see that I was wrong
for ever doubting I could win

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me,
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

life’s too short to have regrets
so I’m learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
only have one life to live
so you better make the best of it

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins,
a whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me,
leave the past behind me, today my life begins,
a whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins,
today my life begins…


We only have one life. Make the best of it !

Hari ini terbesit di pikiran gw untuk men’tweet kalimat ini di twitter..

“There is something feels like a long “Hufffffftt” for every step I’ve been taking 😦 Oh god”

Kata-kata itu kayaknya bukan memberi dorongan positif (mungkin) bagi orang lain but at least that’s what I say as an expression. Setelah 4 tahun menghabiskan waktu sekolah di sekolah kimia ini banyak hal yang tentu udah bikin gw melihat dunia yang mungkin gak diliat banyak orang which is lab and chemie. Maybe bisa gw gambarkan dengan percakapan berikut:

Ade gw : “Kaa, mau minum gak nih es rasa jeruk enaaak loh !! Liat deh 100% mengandung vitamin C, Oreeennn seger“

Gw :”Ah masa? Emang udah dicoba ditambahin zat semacam 2,6-dichlorophenolondophenol yang kalau bereaksi dengan vitamin C akan tereduksi menjadikan larutannya gag berwarna?“

Ade gw: “Hemmmm…“

Gw:  “Emang yakin itu 100% ? Udah dicoba uji secara iodometri? Yang dengan I2 akan terbentuk asam dehidroaskorbik ? Berapa persen tuh dapet kadar vitamin C-nya?“

Ade gw : Hemmmmm

Gw : “Atau udah yakin kalo itu nggak mengandung siklamat?“

Ade gw:  “Siklamat?“

Gw :  “Itu tuh pemanis buatan yang kemanisannya bisa 50x gula biasa. Sejenis senyawa sulfamat yang kalo bereaksi dengan nitrit ngebebasin SO4 2- , yang ditambahin BaCl2 muncul endapan putih, ketauan deh ada siklamatnya atau nggak“

Bla bla bla bla…

Sebelum gw mau masuk sekolah ini, cita-cita gw adalah jadi guru/dosen sastra  Inggris atau interpreter (bayangkan sastra ke kimia, bagaikan sabang-merauke), but then dengan polosnya gw yang belum tau apa-apa tentang kimia masuk ke sekolah ini, dan jeng jeng jeng pupus sudah keinginan gw untuk jadi orang bahasa.

Kadang banyak orang berceloteh dengan pilihan gw saat ini, they say

„Sayang yaa donna masuk smakbo“ dan gw sekedar merespon dengan senyum.

Atau ketemu nyokap temen yang kurang lebih dengan to the poit-nya bertanya  „Lu suka kimia ya?“ Gak juga tante.  „Terus kenapa masuk smakbo?“  Ya begitulah (sebenernya gw males cerita tentang niat sastra gw yang akhirnya milih smakbo*pasti topik memanjang). „Pengennya kuliah?“  Iya tante (pengennya sih jawab, ya iyalah tanteee) „Lu anak pertama ya?“  Iya . „Oh pantes.. (diam sebentar) Orang tua suka gitu sih, suka takut nyekolahin anak“ . (Dear tante, how could you say that? *coba ya tante itu ngomong sambil bilang “no offense loh“  mungkin terdengar lebih ….. )

Ketemu tetangga gw, tante mama Dinda, yang anaknya setahun di bawah gw tapi anaknya ambil aksel dan sekarang udah kuliah Teknik Penerbangan di Bandung  „Don, belum lulus ya? Coba dulu masuk SMA don! Kakaknya Dinda aja udah kuliah di Bandung sekarang keterima SNMPTN undangan. Sayang banget dulu gag SMA don.“

Atau ketemu orang yang bilang  „Don lu cocok loh di HI (hubungan internasional)“

Dan celotehan lainnya (yang kalo dibikin lagu bakal gw kasih judul „Some people say it all“ *dengan refrain-nya lagu Alicia Keys „If I aint got you“), dan itu masuk ke kuping gw selama 1-2 tahun terakhir ini.. Hufffftt (sigh)

Ohh life! Did I take the wrong path ? Pertanyaan ini sempat terlintas dipikiran gw. Padahal emang dulu gw mau masuk sekolah kimia since gw pikir kimia itu bisa masuk ke banyak bidang sebenernya dan memang bisa( pharmacy, mining, environment, oil and gas, manufacture) walaupun hanya di bagian lab. So, I took this.

Desperate tentu aja ada dalam menjalani masa-masa berat di sekolah. Apalagi di saat lu ngeliat temen seangkatan lu di SMA yang sekarang udah kuliah, ditambah lagi kalo orang yang kita gebet sudah melanglangbuana lintas negara untuk menuntut ilmu *itu bagaikan tamparan keras.

Envy dengan mereka? Sebagai manusia tentu rasa envy ada. Gw ngeliat temen-temen gw yang sekolah di SMA negri terbaik di kota gw (padahal dulu gw udah diterima di salah satu SMA negri itu) dengan mudahnya lolos jalur undangan ke PTN, ke yang favoritnya lagi (you knowlah) sedangkan buat sekolah gw, it’s so hard untuk lolos undangan ke univ selain univ negri di Bogor (based on the facts yaa, 1 tahun terakhir ini)..

Memang pernah terbesit  di pikiran gw mungkin kalo gw dulu di SMA negri, gw sekarang kuliah ambil sastra atau HI (yang menurut kebanyakan orang cocok dengan gw). But then I just realised, i couldn‘t go that way! It’s not about passion vs idealism, but for personal reasons I must think about that seriously. Dibilang suka kimia? Gw nggak tergila-gila banget sama kimia (ya suka-suka aja), dibilang sebel, yaa nggak (malah banyak manfaatnya). Orang boleh berceloteh buat kita, tapi nggak serta merta kita langsung hanyut di omongan mereka kan ? *Fase kesadaran 1. They might be right (might be loh), but we are the only who knows it, we are the one who lives our life.. *Fase kesadaran 2

Kalo pernah denger lagunya Bruno Mars yang berjudul „Today my life begins“ (This is really inspiring and motivating, I guess) ada liriknya yang bilang;

Life’s too short to have regrets

So I’m learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget

Only have one life to live

So you better make the best of it

Kata-kata ini cocok untuk temen-temen yang mungkin pernah ngalamin hal yang sama. Gw nggak mengelak bahwa omongan orang lain itu beberapa kali membuat gw melihat 4 tahun lalu yang telah gw lakuin. Apapun bentuk masalah yang kita hadapin,pilihan apapun itu,  emang harusnya kita inget we only have one life, so just make the best of it kan?  *Fase kesadaran 3. Dan lirik lagu di atas sudah cukup memberikan pesan dalam buat kita yang pernah dan nggak lebih bersyukur untuk apa yang kita laluin.Thank You ya mister Mars untuk lagunnya 😀